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[Jan. 10th, 2007|01:45 pm] |
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at the moment I am trying to get our car sold and out of our driveway. This thing has become a huge paper weight but a good one in a way. It was our trusty transportation up until 2 months ago when it decided it could go no longer. This was our wake up call that we needed new wheels. So we got a brand spanking new car. Yes I just said Brand Spankin new, I live in the country now. Sue me. No wait don't, people do that too often these days. Haha
I loved this car and it took me a few weeks to get used to the new one. The seats are different the make is different. It was so bad in fact when I was driving it home from the dealership, I had to pull into a gas station because I was scared to go any further. My dad followed me there because I was supposed to be meeting them at the house. It just felt so strange. I readjusted some things and I at least got myself back and to my motel. I was staying there because my parents house was just too crowded, my mom was nice enough to pay for the room though I didn't need her to.
So now I have one interested person a day after I placed the ad. Let's hope this one is a keeper though I am sad to see my car go. |
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[Nov. 25th, 2003|08:03 pm] |
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Go read something else Biatch. Yeah that means you Chrystal. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2003|07:23 pm] |
Your soul is bound to the Burning Rose: The
Rapture.
"I go where my heart beckons me, and I go
with my head high. But sometimes, I get a need
until I bleed so my heart swims above my
head."
The Burning Rose is associated with passion,
intensity, and desire. It is governed by the
god Eros and its sign is The Flame, or Physical
Love.
As a Burning Rose, you can get lost in the moment
if you let yourself. You are a very physical
person, be it in relationships, work, or play.
You may be driven by your hormones sometimes,
but you know it's because you have to follow
your instinct.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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[Nov. 14th, 2003|10:23 pm] |
I had my doctors appointments today. I got my contact prescription filled and changed . The doc was nice enough to let me go home with trials. I want red colored prescription lenses but I don't want to scare my kid(s) so I won't heh Im getting colored though . (I'll post pics after I have had this kid and lost some weight right now Im a blob with bad skin)
Here's a pic of me in the early stages of pregnancy with Draven
Then it was off to my ob which I paid money for him to check my baby's heartbeat..A 15 min appointment to tell me he's alive. I could have told him that and saved $10.
Let's see what else, I accompanied the hubby to the movies last week to see The Matrix Revoloutions, I figured since He's not gettin sex its the least I could do. I did not see the Second Matrix but I actually thought the movie was ok. Thats his thing.
Shaun just returned from Blockbuster and rented the Adam Sandler cartoon for me..I forget what its called. Anyway and my Donnie Darko DVD is still not here its been a week and 1\2 since I ordered it..where the fuck is it? I love that movie and bought it because I am in need of more to watch. |
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| The Medallion and other small catastrophies |
[Nov. 10th, 2003|08:32 pm] |
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I swear my subject line sounds like I am writing a story. But I alas I will leave that to the talented ones *nudge* ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) 3circledsun
It all started Sunday , I got off of a 8 hour shift and since I am being carted around by my father until I get my car, My mother was present as well. We get to my apartment and she helps me carry Nathan upstairs when out of the blue she tells Shaun and I . I have got to get him a little gold chain for his medallion. Huh? Needless to say we figured out what she was talking about. If you knew anything about Catholicism , they worship saints. I mean people have like little home altars and everything, its creepy. So of course she is talking about a little piece of Catholic propaganda, with a saint on it. We have made it clear numerous times that he is not Catholic so he will have nothing to do with that. I mean its like if we actually believed in one thing and made him wear it. She is very pushy and I feel another argument coming on. Its really heartbreaking that she cannot respect our decisions as parents, But then again she has always been that way I do not think she will ever change. So we have made the decision that Nathan is not even going to be allowed to go to church with Shaun's Parents either. Its almost juvenile like one child (my mother) spoiled it for the rest of the children. We were only letting him go to explore not to convert.
Thanks Mom!
In other news : We used to joke around since the day he was born that he was a Demon Seed. Sadly he is bringing some truth to that statement. Shaun took him to the grocery store today and as they were in line paying. Nathan was in the basket of course. This little girl who was standing with her grandma behind them in line, squeezed past Nathan , I guess to get to the Candy or something , only she did not get too far because Shaun noticed the little girl caught in her tracks. Lo and behold our sweet little boy had grabbed her by the hair as she walked by and would not let go so she was stuck. Shaun said she did not scream or cry or anything of the sort. I laughed of course when I heard about it though Its kind of funny yet its kind of not. Our little boy is evil. I think. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2003|02:22 pm] |
( Dream )
We filled out our paper work and left our deposit at the new place. Its going to be soo cool.There are 2 playgrounds on site with a hiking trail and we also get free membership to the health club down the street, Rent is so much cheaper and we qualify for tax credit rent since I am the only one who works. (I love seeing the looks on others faces when they ask what occupation shaun has and he says Stay-At-Home Daddy:P He hates it..but I love knowing that Nathan is being raised the way we want him to be) with the money I will be saving on rent I am going to use it to decorate. Ill post pics once I get all that done. The babies room as well as every room we have. the only problem is our computer desk I really do not want to part with it:( Shaun thinks it is too big but we will see I guess. |
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| Bottle Up and Explode |
[Nov. 8th, 2003|10:58 am] |
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Yes I exploded all over my supervisor Thursday..which ended in her going to her office
and shutting the door. Mostly because I told her the truth which is what she did not want to hear. She of course apologized as I was leaving that day because she was the one that went off on me in front of the lab , my ghetto side came out and I didn't care what her rank was opposed to mine. Needless to say she may yell at everyone else but She has met her match. Im tired. She and I get to meet when she comes back from Florida because she wants to hear my concerns. We'll see.
On a happier note that day..Draven ( we have started calling him by his name instead of it hehe) made out like mad. I didnt expect that much stuff from my shower but I got it. I even got a $85 gift card for Babies R Us as well as various amounts to other stores
so I feel a shopping spree coming up. I will probably end up getting lots of pampers with most of the money . Nathan is showing signs of walking so as soon as he gets steady a little more. Were potty training him. My mom bought him a little blues clues toilet seat that attaches to the bigger seat as well as a bath mat for the tub. (at our new apartment he and draven will have their own bathroom.) He keeps taking his diaper off..Yesterday I walked in and he was naked. his pamper beside him and when he saw me laughing he pointed at the pamper as if to say "look mommy!" lol . Kids are so funny.
We are going out to give the apartment complex a deposit so we can move in December.
Im nervous yet Im excited. |
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| Ranting |
[Nov. 2nd, 2003|06:33 pm] |
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I honestly do not and cannot understand her. We made plans and again she broke them. Im glad I did not get dressed up or anything to go out and I made alternate plans to rent movies and spend the day playing with Nathan. She never called or anything. I guess is it safe to say I am through?
another thing I am trying not to be judgmental about this but its awfully hard. If you know your child is in danger in some way why push it? He doesn't care about her if he did he would change. Its sad that this poor child is being used just so he can get to her. But then again its her fault because she can tell him where to go. Hes not much of a dad anyway. Maybe I should just stay out of it and the next time she wants to rant and rave about him I should cut her off and say I don't want to hear about it. He has no car, no ambition and no realistic plans for the future. I know I have no car at the moment but my situation is different. I have plans to get another car. He on the other hand is 27 , does not and will not drive and he wants to be an actor. I laugh at that. why ? because he does nothing to make it happen. Grr maybe Im just upset at both of them , he for being inconsiderate to his daughter and her for being inconsiderate to people who really care and try to be there for her.
The sad part is they are not even together he gives her lousy child support and she spends her spare time chasing after a guy who is insecure about their relationship , is not sure about being with someone who has a child. I just need to find one really good friend..Someone other than Shaun who I can spend time with and be there for and who will be there for me. This is seriously bugging me. I think Im just mad right now.
*ending rant*
"Stuck inside this mask of mine
There's no place for me to hide
Won't you please come suck me dry
Don't touch me
Don't Fucking touch me" |
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| Waiting |
[Nov. 2nd, 2003|11:43 am] |
Yesterday we spent the day at my parents house..they are having another garage sale and we still had some stuff left over from the previous sale at Jessica's. So we sent it all over there...Its amazing how much some people that go to these things are not willing to spend. There is a table set my mom's neighbor friend is trying to sell , that I think is a good deal considering it is a box still unassembled..if it were not a glass top Id want it.Wrought Iron bars.for $50 ...she paid $200 for it! they want it for $30 or $15. Amazing. I had fun just watching these people try to bargain with her.
Joni and I are supposed to do something today ...Not holding my breath though.
She sleeps late that is why I told her to call me instead of myself calling her. Our little rugrat is up at 9 am every morning for breakfast. or Breaky as we call it in our household.
Shaun is the sweetest guy in the world I think. He made me breakfast this morning.
I hardly eat breakfast except for maybe a piece of toast or a some fruit every now and then.
I have to go get Nathan before he tears up the living room. He is a little terror when he is in the walker and nothing is spared when it comes into his path. |
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| My Public Service Announcement |
[Nov. 2nd, 2003|10:54 am] |
Im 2 days late with this as it was last month.
Last month was Domestic Violence Awareness month
So with that in mind.
FUCK YOU J.B.
Ok that is all.
He makes me sick and I wish he would drop off the face of the earth already.
But no I cant even hang around certain places because of him. Shaun wants to kick his ass.
ok Im done. |
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[Oct. 26th, 2003|05:00 pm] |
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*grin*
Random TMI
Shaun said I made bastard cd's. So I'm like WTF? heh He said ya yah know You make cds with 2 albums on them at once. Well what can I say I hate to waste space on a cd.
I took Nathan to visit his grandparents yesterday amazingly no drama. Though I did have to stop my dad from overfeeding him and giving him of all things a donut! I know this is why I struggle with weight and I will be damned if my son will go through all that. Everyone in my immediate family is overweight (some more than others) except my older brother and my mom.
Its amazing may as well nickname them the Klumps. Nathan ate like a little piggy at the party which is why I did not give him cake. In addition to that he got a happy meal on the way out there because Im such a bad mommy I forgot that he might want lunch and we got lost anyway, thanks to Yahoo Maps. Hint of advice : Never use Yahoo Maps. Use Mapquest if you don't know where the fuck you are going.
Aside from all that Shaun is packing our stuff up so we can just leave when we find an apartment or whatever. If we don't do that we are staying in a pay by the week hotel until we find one. I want to go somewhere where we can stay put for a bit and not move for awhile. at least until we are ready to buy a house.
Ive got so many goals Id like to accomplish in the next 5 years and I am determined to do so.
one of them being find a spiritual path suitable for the 4 of us. I think I am putting Nathan in Pre-school next year at the unitarian church. He can start as early as 2 and I think it would be nice for him to be exposed to children who are of different religions. He needs to develop social skills too so I think this would be a good thing. |
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[Oct. 24th, 2003|08:02 pm] |
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Ok Margaret Cho officially kicks ass!
She wrote a very touching entry about Elliott Smith on her blog.
I guess its safe to say the man touched many lives with his voice and he will be missed.
Ive had mixed emotions over the past few days. Sadness,then that sadness turned to angst.
Ive been listening to my E. Smith stuff all week. Yah Im weird so the fuck what. He touched me and for that I will forever hold a small space in my heart. I wish I could go to one of the memorials , there is one in Austin but so Far I have heard of none in Dallas.
Oh yah Kellie Rasberry on 106.1 can kiss my ass with her snide little comments about "the man who stabbed himself" I never really liked her in the first place. God can we exchange Elliott for her beloved Britney? Please? Its amazing that people could go on about things they know nothing about.
I had the day off all day so Im refreshed. Had a doctors visit, got back on WIC, and looked at an apartment in Dallas!!! (I cannot wait to move back)It will be so nice to be away from this town and my parents. We are back to spiritual exploration , thanks mom for your inspiration. You make me just want to stray further and further away from you and your godforsaken church. Why is it that she cannot be happy with my decisions regarding my life? I feel kind of bad because my dad is in the middle but he has a voice and he can use it instead of letting Cruella run the show. I felt bad for saying that Nathan would not be spending the night anymore because I am still mad over the shit she pulled last weekened. Tell me I am making the right decision. |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2003|08:50 pm] |
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This is one of my favorite songs by him.
( Read more... )
Im not sure if what I feel is right . I am actually saddened. Elliott Smith is dead. This is really affecting me in the way that Kurt Cobain's Suicide did. I want to cry .I remember seeing Elliott for the first time at Trees. This is a man whose words have actually made me cry at times. I was actually talking about him Sunday to Shaun and how I wish he would come out with something new because I could not wait until he toured again:( Yesterday I looked at my pack of pics I had of him from the last the time I saw him. And today I find out he's dead. *sigh*
Don't you dare disturb me
while Im balancing my past
cuz you can't help or hurt me
like it already has
I may not seem quite right
but I'm not fucked not quite
-Elliott Smith |
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[Oct. 20th, 2003|06:08 pm] |
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When Im away from the computer I usually have alot on my mind, but when I get here I can't remember any of it. I would carry my paper journal around with me but I end up forgetting that as well. I think I want to move but Im not sure how we can go about it.Mentally I am ready but Financially I am concerned. Im tired of this cloud that hangs over us usually brought on by my job,my mother's antics and this overall sense of wanting to get out and explore new places and people.
A summary of the past few days:
Last week I worked the graveyard shift for a co-worker who needed me to help her out. Im ok with doing anything for her because she would do the same for me. Having Friday off was kind of cool its just too bad we were broke. We got out to the state fair on saturday and were there from 10 am to 10 pm. It was pretty cool until the point where my mother decided to pick a fight with me over religion of all things and the supposed way I treat my mother-in-law to the way I treat her. I treat them equally , I think my mother is just a very selfish person who refuses to cut the umbilical cord. She craves the dramatic side of things and I hate drama. But I watched her with my own grandma (her mother-in-law), they were constantly fighting, she always fought with my aunt(my dad's sister) and caused problems with my brothers marriage as well. Though I thought of his wife as a possessive bitch, that was his problem. He was a divorced at the age of 23. She hates people for no reason and is a compulsive gossiper. It drives me crazy. I wish I had to strength to do as some of my friends have done to their own crazy moms and just cut her off completely, but there are also Innocent people involved like my dad,Nathan,my sister etc. With them comes her. Moving is the only solution. we are a family are about to venture out onto spirituality exploration soon and I know that is going to cause problems because we want to explore different paths something she thinks is wrong. My mom never ceases to amaze me, after she has caused problems she tries to make up for it. This time she bought some stuff for my candles. I knew that was going to happen. I should give it back to her but I need it. This is not the only problem I have with her. She still refuses to know her place in my son's life and so do some of my relatives. The ones on her side. My cousin has a 4 year-old son who just turned 4 actually and had a birthday party at Chuck E Cheese's , on the day of the party my mother calls up to see if "they", not us can take Nathan. No one told us of any party and we had already made plans to get family pictures made. So this really bothered me. we are his parents why the hell did we not get the invitation. We are the ones with a child not them. It pissed me off and it still does.
Needless to say they went anyway.
On a much happier note she did not ruin my saturday night, I got to see Blues Traveler and spend some alone time with Shaun. They took Nathan and we picked him up once the concert was over.
I get paid tommorrow, we are going to go out to dinner something we have not been able to do lately ,Halloween is approaching and There is a b-day party this saturday .
Oh yah and my APC cd finally got here. |
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[Oct. 19th, 2003|04:33 pm] |
Ok somebody anybody tell me how to post pics..Everytime I try to post from Geoshities it never shows up..
I know the code to post pics..But I could be putting the location of the pic in wrong.
I also use snapfish to store pics so if you know how to do it from there please tell me how!
Thanks |
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